So here I am, 18 years old. Why is it that some if not most of the time I feel like I was meant to be older? Some people have coined the term "old soul" on me before, but what exactly constitutes an "old soul?" Someone boring? Someone who is wise beyond their years? Is it negative or positive?
Many of us have felt like we are growing up too quickly, but I on the other hand often feel at times I am growing up too slowly. I know we are supposed to enjoy our youth and make the most of our young years, but isn't there a fast forward for christ's sake? Not to say I don't love partying and being "young, wild, and free", but I feel if I do this for too much longer I am going to collapse! This live fast die young life style is great occasionally, but I feel as a young adult there is so much pressure to be crazy and go out. I have found people who want to stay in with me over a cup of tea, but why do we have to stay in when we aren't going out?
What about venturing to a film festival or a museum or other "adult like" activities. I feel like the types of teens are black and white now a days, either you wake up in a bathroom with a pounding head ache every morning or you spend hundred hour weeks playing World of Warcraft. This may sound extreme and I know I am being dramatic, but I do often feel "too old for my age." I know what you are thinking, if you don't to go out, then don't go out. Finding other people to do these things with is harder to find than one may think!
And again, it's not to say I love those nights I forget, waking up with pictures on my phone I don't remember taking. It's hilarious and exciting but where is the happy medium? It is the confusion of who I am and what I love at this point that makes me question my self I suppose. However that is what this awkward transitional period is about right? Finding out who we are, what we love, and how we act. Despite the fact I heavily look forward to my future of having a family and settling down, we are only young once and should live it up while we can. This doesn't have to mean getting black out wasted every night, or staying in to prove a point, but finding a happy balance and enjoying freedom while it is still ours whether we are out at an arts fest listening to music or having our face melt at a rave.



Well said. I agree that a happy medium is necessary during this "transitional" period entitled college. I think that finding a group of friends who share your old soul personality is the key to unlocking that medium. Staying in for tea, knowing how to let loose at a party, and immersing yourself in cultural activities are all essential in order to experience the best, well-rounded college experience.
ReplyDeleteI have dealt with finding that happy medium. I have never been much of a partier and have spent many nights at home reading rather than drinking. Then I started meeting older people, and by older I mean late twenties and early thirties, and it has made all the difference. I can still be young and have fun but in ways I enjoy, and even if there is some partying involved, it's moderated and no one gets raging drunk and attacks a toilet (true story).
ReplyDeleteI'm glad I'm not the only one who didn't party when I was younger. Being Mormon had a lot to do with it, but even if I wasn't I've never had the personality to get together with a big group of people and drink. Tea and a book or movie sounds great to me! So, thanks! Even though I'm 15 years older than you, I don't feel so alone, or old. (And I hope this doesn't make you feel old since you do what this 30-something is doing on a Friday night). =)
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