Sounds like nothing to worry about right ? but yeah, i forgot to mention to you that i will also have to go visit my dads grave site for the first time. This will be the first time in my life i will be facing a grave site that is not on tv and it had to be my dads. I'm trying to not make it such a big deal in my head but keep thinking about it. I hope it doesn't ruin the rest of my trip. By that i mean, bring me down and have me crying and upset the rest of the time. I feel bad for saying this, but i kind of don't want to even go to it because i don't want to ruin the "great summer" that i've been planning for myself. Not to mention i met a Russian boy my parents approve of and he lives there. I don't want to seem like a big huge ball bag.
In a perfect world, i am just planning on having it be like a 30 minute thing, me visiting his grave site . and then hopefully im fine and i can just go to a cafe and catch up on whats been going on in my life for the years my family has not seen me. Hopefully that "perfect world" i always think of actually happens just this once.
First off, those pictures are gorgeous. Second off, getting to see your dad's grave could be a beautiful thing for you. At least I hope it will be for you. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose a parent, and I'm not looking to the day that happens.
ReplyDeleteThe only thing guaranteed in life is death. It sounds so depressing, but its true. So why are we all so afraid of it? (Not just you, that is something I am terrified of) I remember the first time I saw a grave. It was my Great Aunt Margie whom I barely knew, yet it was still a traumatizing experience because it made death real for me. Just try and remember that it is a natural cycle.
ReplyDeleteYo Yulia, I know what it's like to loose your dad. I lost my dad when I was 16. It was a miserable experience, but I know that my dad wouldn't want me to grieve or dwell on his death so I stay positive like he always was, and it helps. Also, he is a funny guy and he got his sense of humor from his mom; my grandma, and on my grandma's grave stone it says, "Here lies Beverly heaven sent, no one knows which way she went." It always puts a smile on my face when I see it. That was her attitude towards the act of dying and it takes some of the suffering and sadness away I think.
ReplyDeletethanks guy :) and tom hahahahhaha that made me laugh :))))
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